By: Hannah Schelling
We all go through tough seasons. The past few weeks has been one of those tough seasons for me. As I reflected and prayed about why God was allowing this tough, dark time in my life, I felt the Lord say “I am teaching you in these times Hannah to come to me. I want you to come to me with everything. I am a compassionate Father who desires a close relationship with you. Hannah, I want you to need Me, to rely on Me, and to trust Me. I want you to believe what I have to say about you. You are My daughter. Let Me tell you who you are to Me so you can recognize everything else as a lie. I want you to come to Me with the decisions you need to make and not to this world, more than that stop trying to do things in my own strength.”
After graduating high school I planned on attending East Carolina University in the spring semester of my freshman year. I was excited, a little nervous, but ready to see what God had in store for me at this new school in a new town. During the fall I began attending the local community college. As the days went by I began to see the needs my family had at home and thought maybe it would be better to just stay home, continuing community college and helping my family. I began to pray and ask God to show me what He wanted me to do. I asked Him to make His will for me clear because I went from a clear goal of attending ECU, to wondering if I should stay home, to quickly feeling lost and confused in the direction I needed to take for my future.
As I continued to press into God and my desire to help my family I began to sense I might be compromising the plans God had for me to go away. Many questions flooded my mind. Could I do both? I didn’t want to compromise God’s plan for my life, but wouldn’t God also want me to help my family? What would happen if I wasn’t there to give my family the help they needed? If I could still go to school and help my family wouldn’t that be a win-win? Wouldn’t it be selfish of me to chase my dream of going away to school when there was a need and a community college right here at home? Can anyone else relate to the flood of questions that enters your mind when you are find yourself in a state of confusion, lost and looking for God’s direction? Has anyone else wondered if you were compromising God’s call in your life? Has anyone else wondered if you were worth it?
I sat in silence waiting and wondering if God was going to answer me, confirm to me where I was to be. Why was He so quiet? What I was once so sure of was now nothing but utter confusion. I began to pray that God would give me a clear sign, make it known where He wanted me and the peace and the courage to walk in His truth would be given to me whatever His answer. I was holding on in the silence and the wait choosing with every bit of strength I had that God would answer my prayer. I held on in the darkest of days, even though some days I felt I was holding on by a thread. It was a grueling wait.
Then just the other day, my mom walked in the door and came to me and said “Hannah, I want you to pursue your plans to go to ECU in the spring”. I was blown away. God answered my prayer through my mom, the very one I was so desperately trying to help. In that very moment, God moved in my heart and brought me the peace and clarity I had been praying for. In a simple moment and through the words of my mom God brought me peace and the excitement returned. He is so faithful. I am beginning to realize I am worth the sacrifice, I don’t ever want to compromise God’s plan for my life, and that I need to trust my family and all things to God. He will take care of me and He will take care of them.
I once heard “anxiety is a result of picturing your future without God in it.” God is in my yesterdays, my todays and my tomorrows and so anxiety and worry have no place in my life or in yours. When you are praying for answers will you take this trust journey with me and begin to truly walk in expectancy that He will come through for you in His perfect timing and not worry. God is in our future, so we don’t have to worry about it. He is always a step ahead of us. Don’t move until God does. Do not wander into the future aimlessly. Remember that each day is a part of your walk; embrace the journey, even the dark times as you are learning to go to your Father with everything and trust God’s plan for you. On the other side of your tough season you will find yourself closer to God than ever. I know I am! Take advantage of this time and pray harder than ever before and in this season more than any other, give Him thanks for His grace and love for you. Believe He will come through with an answer. I heard stated, “The reality of His presence with you, now and forevermore, outshines any fantasy you could ever imagine.”
Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? (Luke 12:22-25)
Envision your life with Jesus in it. His sacrifice is mighty enough to erase all of the lies you believe about yourself, and makes you worthy of the righteousness we have in Him. Trust he will guide you in any decision you need to make. Grab hold of His hand reaching out to you, and never let it go. Together let’s embrace our future with God.
For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.(Luke 12:34)