by Missy Strayer
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
There has been a song in my head for the last 3 weeks titled, “Nothing I Hold Onto”. Here are a few of the words.
“I lean not on my own understanding; My life is in the hands of the maker of heaven. I Give it all to you God, Trusting that you’ll make something beautiful out of me. I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open. There is nothing I hold on to. All Glory To God, Forever. Amen”
These words have come to me several times in the last month. They spoke and still speak into many areas of life I am walking through. The biggest event right now is sending my oldest son off to college. Oh boy that was a big one. I have been a single parent for 10 years. As you can imagine, we have had many ups and downs, but God has always been present. He has walked with us when we were on top of the mountain and at the bottom. He has given us the strength and the wisdom to persevere or to fight for what is right.
While helping him pack to leave, my mind was a battlefield. How is he going to make it without me? Who is going to make sure he eats, gets enough sleep, gets to class on time, studies to his full potential? Who will help him fend off the temptations of the world known as college life? Now don’t get me wrong, I have not had to do a lot for him in the last two years of high school; he has been extremely self-sufficient. As for temptation, I am sure he has had his fair share, but I have also been able to talk through issues as they arose. Who is going to help him now?
As my brain went into overload, the song would pop into my head….lean not on my own understanding, my life is in the hands of the maker of heaven…. So, if my life is in The Maker’s hands, isn’t my son’s as well? He will be there with him as he walks all of these first adventures: guiding him, teaching him, providing him with wisdom and discernment. I have to trust in my God. I have to let my son go and let God take over. This task for a self proclaimed controlling personality is not easy, but necessary, for all of us. God is bigger than all of this. He is the maker of heaven and earth, the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. The Holy Spirit flows through my son and will guide him and lead him. I will rest in the fact that God, whose grace and mercies are never ending, will be there every step of the way. Thankfully, I am only a phone call away.
My prayer for you, is you rest in the fact that God has got you in every situation. Whatever your need, He is always there. If you call on Him; he will answer providing wisdom, discernment and freedom from your pain and suffering. Praise God and trust in Him fully. Amen.