by Kelly Waite
Exodus 3: 11-12
But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?” 12 And God said, “I will be with you”.
As I lay awake around 2:00 am in a hotel bed in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia, fear began to set in. We had arrived in Addis early the morning before and caught up on some rest from two days of traveling. We made our way to the care center where our son was living and spent time getting to know him. It was an amazing day filled with incredible joy. The range of emotion is complicated to say the least. We had come to a place that had remained hidden in our dreams and prayers; but now here it was in the flesh. Up until this point I never imagined that fear would set in, but it did, like a huge weight sitting upon my chest.
Sometimes when God calls us to something we get excited and can’t wait on His timing to walk it out. That was me. I knew that we were called to international adoption. First, with our two children who are from China and then to our son who lives in Ethiopia. There was no question in my mind, no doubt. However, after meeting my son and heading back to the hotel room, full of emotions, I lay in bed and fear crept in. Fear lied to me and told me I could not do this. It said my hands were already full with 4 children at home. How was I going to get anything done with 3 toddlers running around the house, was I ever going to find myself again, did I miss God? Fear tries to manipulate you into doing what it wants you to do. It wants you to run away from whatever God is calling you to.
Thank goodness I didn’t fall for fear’s lies and manipulation or I would have taken the next plane home. Instead I surrendered my life once again to God. I called upon His sweet mercies and heard His sweet words say to me “I will be with you”. You see God doesn’t call us to something and then leave us there alone to fend for ourselves. No, He is always with us. Just as God called Moses to something that he felt inadequate to do, He told him, “I will be with you”.
Is there something God has called you to, something that you know in the depths of your soul are words spoken directly to your heart from God himself? Then don’t let fear invade those dreams. Walk them out with the one who says, “I will be with you”.
Lord I pray that you would instill boldness and peace where fear resides. That you would cast away any doubt and enable your people to walk in their calling today. I pray for an excitement to stir in their hearts because they know that you will be with them. In Jesus name, Amen.